There are a multiple number of facts that I avoid facing all together these days.
The fact that I am here right now is because I am sneaking up on facts from behind.
The fact that I am writing this blog is because I am ignoring the facts.. and my facts are my responsibilities.
Kids, work, family, my identity.
Agreed. I need to act with more dignity. Be a responsible adult and get things done.
But in what order?
I am lost. Overwhelmed. My brain does not function. Every task seems too complicated or intellectually beyond me since last year. I can feel walls closing in... pushing against all sides of my brain. My brain needs to breath. It needs more oxygen. I cannot think.
If I weren't so helplessly lost, I would be facing facts and taking care of them (dignified or not). I wouldn't be reading fortune cookies to enlighten me, channeling air into my poor brain. This is not enough. My brain needs to breath. My brain is in a box that's too small. Need to find a bigger box, or throw away what's not been used any longer. Make some space for new elements to enter. But how? Meditate? Yoga? Why not??
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